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She's sort of a hypocrite, she thinks to herself as she sits on the edge of her bed, head between her knees as her hands shake and her throat feels like it's constricted completely, like there's someone standing over her with a hand on her throat cutting off her air from the source. She tells Max he needs to get help; he needs to let people help him, she says. He can't just get over his problems on his own, she tells him. But here she sits, the panic flowing over her in waves and rushes and darkness and she won't tell him they've happened - she won't tell anyone they've happened. Fine, so the lavender doesn't help as much as it did in the beginning. Maybe the ylang ylang will, or the bergamot, or the jasmine, or the clary sage. There's no shortage of options, after all.
There's one option that makes the most sense, of course, and that is talk to her therapist, talk to her doctor, take something that isn't an essential oil in a diffuser or a chunk of black tourmaline held tightly in her hand like she can funnel all of it into the crystal that turns her knuckles white from the force of her grip. But she stopped talking to her therapist a month and a half ago (hypocrite strike number one: she hounds Max somewhat relentlessly about making sure he is talking to his therapist, but she'll maintain a drug addiction he's struggling to get over and an alcohol dependency he won't admit to are more important than nightmares and panic attacks, if that's really what they are) and when her doctor asks her during her yearly physical if there's anything causing her any trouble, she smiles politely and says no, there isn't.
No one has time for her problems right now. And it isn't even that she's being self-pitying - she's just being realistic. The attacks aren't that bad, not in the grand scheme of things. (Sure, she feels like she might die for a few minutes, but then they're over and she's fine.) She'll sound like she's whining, because in her head she sounds like she's whining, and she'd just rather avoid the whole thing altogether. She just doesn't want to bother anybody.
She never wants to bother anybody. She's fine.
(But not really.)
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Camilla James Opens Up About Finding Her Place in Hollywood And What She's Learned From Past Projects Ahead of what is sure to be a banner year, the actress gets candid about fame and the pursuit of kindness. BY DANIELLE KWATENG-CLARK AND ALANA MASSEY PHOTOGRAPHY BY RONAN MCKENZIE JULY 1, 2019 Growing up in California — Santa Cruz for a bit, Los Angeles for a bit more — with parents who were not together but both in the business, Camilla James vividly remembers being on film sets when she was younger. Despite this, she never wanted to be an actress, though you'd never know it based on the impressive resume she's already carved out for herself in the few years she's been onscreen. She is sweetly modest and humble about her success, however, always a little flustered when people mention that they enjoyed one of her past roles. For our July/August cover story, we talked to Camilla ("I prefer Cami," she told us, polite and quiet like she was afraid she'd offend, "but I'll answer to anything!") about the passion behind each project she pursues. From Midsommar to the upcoming Little Women to volunteer work and what she'd like to see more of in Hollywood, her choices are intentional and purposeful, and we watch in awe as she gives us the performances of her life. |
 Gucci jacket, top, pants, and belt; Music Legs tights; Bottega Veneta shoes. Teen Vogue: Have you reconciled with all of your success? Has it hit you yet? Camilla James: Thank you very much for the compliment, that's very kind, though I don't know if I would call it all my success. That seems like something you say to a Meryl Streep or a Patricia Clarkson. I've just been very lucky to work on some projects that people seem to enjoy. And that's more down to the directors and writers than it is to me! I just help bring their visions to life, the best I can. I don't know. I guess maybe I measure my success more as a fur parent than as an actress. TV: Yeah, I read you have, what, a few dogs and a cat? CJ: Yes! There's Rosie, she's the cat, then RJ and Little Bear are the dogs. I want more, though. I'd like to get, like - I don't know, maybe a tortoise and a hedgehog and just have an absolute hodgepodge of a menagerie. I have a friend who has a family that owns a sheep farm! I think maybe I'd like a couple lambs, too. But I guess that's hard to accomplish when you live between New York City and Los Angeles. Not really anywhere for them to roam! TV: Sounds like an excuse to get another place, if you ask me. CJ: You know, I would love that! I always say when I retire, I want to move to the French countryside in a cottage with lots of animals. I think I'd lose my mind after a few months, though. Maybe I need a cottage and a little place in Paris for when I miss the big city life. TV: What draws you to the projects you've been part of? What's that process like? CJ: I have to feel a connection with the script, first and foremost. Not necessarily with the character I'm playing, but with the script overall. Because if I'm excited about that, then everything else falls into place. I like darker things, which people find a little amusing, because that's not the sort of media content I choose to watch in my free time — unless it's Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, which I'm really obsessed with and I love the darker take on it. But, I digress! I like darker things because it gives me more of an opportunity to stretch myself, so to speak. Because it's usually characters making decisions I would never make myself. I know some people pick their projects based on directors or costars, but for me, like I said, it really is all about the script. Once I connect with that, all the rest comes together. I'll sometimes go back and watch other things the director has done, but not always. Like, with Levi [Kilway, director of Midsommar], I didn't watch Hereditary. I don't actually like horror movies, scary or psychological or what have you. I can only sit through Midsommar because I know it's all special effects! But, anyway, I heard he was incredible and I watched this short film he did, The Strange Thing About The Johnsons, and it was so different from anything I'd seen and really kind of shakes you to the core that I was like, yes, okay, this script is great and he is great and I have to do this. I get very bull headed once I find a part I like. TV: What do you mean, you get bull headed? CJ: I fight very hard for the parts I want. I try to, at any rate. I'm very dramatic about it, I guess, in a way. I get very, okay, if I don't get this part, I'm going to die. Not that I ever tell a casting director or director or anyone that directly! That's just how my mindset is when I'm going into callbacks for it. Obviously, of course, in this business you wind up not getting parts you'd have liked to, that's the nature of it, but every part that I've felt that strongly about, that I thought I would just cease to exist if I didn't get — god, I really do sound like a drama queen, don't I? I promise I'm not! — I wound up with. So I guess it works? I went really balls to the wall in my auditions for Midsommar, I came in wearing corsets for my auditions for Little Women, I just go very hard with it all. |
 Bottega Veneta shirt, skirt, bracelet, and shoes; Wolford tights. TV: How do you feel about the reception that Midsommar has received? Were you apprehensive going into it at all? CJ: It's very exciting, how well it's gone over. I'm really pleased people are liking it, because Levi did such a fantastic job with it. He's amazing, right? He's brilliant. He deserves all the praise he's been getting, absolutely. I get a little bit irritated when I read reviews sort of feeling any kind of pity for Christian, though? Obviously, Dani isn't a perfect character, she's not a perfect person and that's why I was drawn to her, but neither is Christian. Do I think all emotionally abusive boyfriends should be set on fire? No, of course not. But I think people have been very quick to make excuses for him and that bothers me. I think it says a lot about how we view women and how they're treated. There's so much gaslighting in it. But I wasn't really apprehensive, no. I trusted everyone on the crew, everyone in the cast, that we were going to make a really great film, and we did, I'm proud of it. I think my only real concern was that I wouldn't fit into the costumes for the whole length of filming because I'd eat too much goulash. TV: With Little Women, what feelings did you have going into being in this film, which is re-creating an iconic piece of American literature? CJ: This one, I was actually very apprehensive about taking. I was so nervous and terrified and everything in between, but I was also incredibly excited about it. Little Women is my favorite book, so it was a dream come true. But how could you not be a little terrified going into it? It's this iconic piece of American literature, and on top of that, it's Greta Gerwig, and on top of that it's, you know Meryl Streep and Laura Dern. I looked around that first day on set and was like, really? Me? You picked me? I don't belong here! And I know some people are already in a mindset of, ugh, we've already had so many remakes, why do we need another? But I like that there's been a few different versions. I've never seen any of them myself, but the way I like to look at it is: everyone is putting their own spin on it. The writers, the directors, the actors — everyone has a different outlook on it. I don't think remakes are a bad thing. TV: What do you think you learned about yourself while filming Little Women? CJ: Playing Amy March was the best thing I could have asked for. I love all the March girls, I do, but I always had a soft spot for Amy. She gets a lot of hate for, really, no reason. People just don't understand her, and I think they don't take into account how young she was at the start. Her character development was great. They hate her because she ended up with Laurie instead of Jo — but don't take into consideration that Jo rejected Laurie first, that she didn't love him in the same way, and it wasn't as if Amy snaked him away. It was all very mature and natural. She's a little bratty, yes, and she says some things that are probably a little terrible, but I think she's a realist in that way. She says things that are truthful and honest and she's just a blunt person, that's just who she is. I'm not that way, I just a not that blunt, and I think I'd like to take how honest she is away a bit for myself. I guess the biggest thing I learned about myself was how protective I feel of Amy, though, because I could go into much more detail about how she doesn't deserve the hate she gets. I love her! |
 Gucci blazer, blouse, and pants; Bottega Veneta bracelet and shoes; Music Legs tights. TV: How did you first get into acting? CJ: Sort of by accident, which I know is a silly answer. But I never really had an intense passion for it. But I knew Gia Coppola, my director on Palo Alto, and she was having a difficult time bringing together a cast she really liked. We were just hanging out, I was helping her read through some things, and she just sort of asked me, like, hey, would you consider doing this? I thought she was crazy! But I said sure, and I came to set, and I loved it. And that was that. TV: That first role, Palo Alto, what did you learn from that experience that maybe youβve taken along with you in your career? CJ: That so much of acting is collaborating. You're collaborating with the director, with the other actors, sometimes with the makeup department. You cannot go into this business and be all about me, me, me, because I don't think you would last very long! It's all about being a team player and being open, because the process is so much better if you work together with everyone on it. TV: Whatβs the most surreal moment youβve had so far while being a young actor? CJ: Just the amount of talent I've been able to work with, honestly. I've worked with Sofia Coppola, with Kirsten Dunst and Meryl Streep and Amy Adams, with Jean-Marc Vallée — and I'm not trying to brag, honest, I just feel so blessed and honored to have gotten those chances. Like! Kirsten Dunst's number is in my phone! That's bananas! It's all been incredibly surreal. |
 Blumarine dress; Bottega Veneta bracelet and shoes; Music Legs tights. TV: You have had a big social following for a bit — what sort of responsibility do you feel because of that? Especially as a young person? CJ: A lot of responsibility! I never want to do anything that would be bad for a younger person to emulate, which is hard now, because of the whole hack. There's a lot out there about me that I wish wasn't there, and I can't change that, but I can try and make sure that I make very good choices. Not that I'm ashamed of what got put out there, because I'm not, it's more just that it's difficult feeling judged for something that's perfectly normal and healthy in my life. But, again, I digress. I do that a lot, I'm so sorry! I try to keep things really positive and upbeat. I think young people kind of need that right now. TV: What's something you do that you wish more people knew about? CJ: Well, I don't want people to know this from a standpoint of wanting people to know I do it, so much as I want people to know about it so maybe they can do it themselves — but I volunteer a lot. It's important to me. I visit a couple different nursing homes a few times a month to help out the nurses, to hang out with the folks that live there. They always have such amazing stories, the patients. It's incredible to hear some of the things they've lived through and have seen, and sometimes their families aren't always able to visit as often as they like, so I think it's maybe nice for them to be around people they don't see every day. There's this thing, too, where you can hold and cuddle babies in NICU units? Not every hospital does it, but there's one near where I live in Los Angeles I go to when I can. You hold these babies that are there long term so their parents can't be there all the time because they need to work or just need to be at home for a bit. I just think it's important to help other people when you can. From a karma standpoint, yes, but just more than that, I think we need to love each other more. And that's sort of my way of spreading that, of helping people know that they're loved and cared for. TV: Is there a particular role you'd like to be able to play if you could, regardless of gender or age or anything in between? CJ: I'd like to play some more historical women. I know people don't always think I have a face for period films, but they're my favorite to watch, and I'd like to do more of them. Hulu recently gave a pilot order to this show about Catherine the Great, and I get to play Catherine, and I'm very excited about it. I'd like to play someone like Anne Boleyn or Elizabeth Woodville, too. Cleopatra would be a dream, but it's so up in the air about whether or not she would've been a white woman or not, I'm not sure I'd be the right pick for it. God, actually, you know what? This is going to make me seem a little silly — but if they ever do another dub of Sailor Moon, man, they need to hit me up. I'll voice anyone. Give me just one line, my life would be complete. TV: You've spoken before about maybe wanting to branch out from acting. What else do you picture yourself doing? CJ: I'd really like to get into producing. People like Margot Robbie, Jennifer Lawrence, Sarah Polley — I admire that ability to pivot into producing. And not even just for me; would I like to be able to produce some of my own projects? Sure, why not. But I like the idea of being able to produce things to support other women. Margot's doing a great job of that, of helping support these first time filmmakers and female writers and things. I don't know if I would want to direct! Write, maybe? That might be an interesting path to go down. But producing, definitely. TV: Is that something you'd like to see more of in Hollywood? CJ: Women being more in control and taken a bit more seriously, you mean? Definitely, yeah. And more inclusion in general, regardless of sexual orientation or race or gender or anything in between. I'm really excited when I hear about, you know, things like Broadway shows that do blind casting — if you have a good voice, if you can do the part justice, you get it. I think that's great. This interview has been condensed for clarity. |
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Midsommar in a nutshell
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killingvillanelle
sharp objects // killing eve#amma crellin #villanelle #camilla james #ellie leitch #just some feral murder girls who want cake #a sharp objects x killing eve crossover is the shit we deserve #(and not just because i want cami and ellie onscreen together again) #(okay yes partly that) #(EXCEPT THIS TIME THEY WOULD ACTUALLY SHARE SCREENTIME)
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| Princess Brea from βThe Dark Crystal: Age of Resistanceβ (Ep. 3). |
βI've loved every single project I've ever done, genuinely - but there haven't been very many that I've screamed about, but I did just that when I found out that I got Dark Crystal. I was such a huge, huge fan of the original film - I watch it so often, it's so cool - and so I just freaked out. And I love her because she reminds me of me a little bit, always reading, always trying to learn more. I hope people love her as much as I do.β
LITERAL QT!!!! #camilla james #the dark crystal #the dark crystal: age of resistance
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unpopular (according to tumblr, at any rate) opinion time: camilla james was not snubbed by her lack of an emmy nomination. she wasn't THAT GREAT in sharp objects compared to amy adams or patricia clarkson. cool! she can play an affluent white girl teenager that occasionally gives someone a stare down! so can literally every other actress in existence. it wasn't a revelation of a performance in any way, shape, or form, so stop your bitching. (there's also literally no reason she deserves some kind of oscar nom for midsommar because it was overrated as fuck and i'm NOT excited for the inevitable whining when she doesn't get one because the academy just doesn't give a shit about horror films and you'd think these little snowflakes would have wrapped their heads around that by now AND YET??)
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| moment of appreciation for camilla james aka queen of "sociopathic murder babies" |
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thesnadger
Way, way, way too many reviews of Midsommar: Christian is at turns flawed and sympathetic. Heβs somewhat distant and perhaps lacks empathy, but in the end itβs impossible to cast judgement on anyone.
Every single post about Midsommar Iβve seen on tumblr: Okay so thereβs some skull crushing and stuff but mostly youβre gonna love this story about Dani setting her emotionally abusive boyfriend on fire.
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swan--queen
can we just take a moment to talk about how, truly, the king of all daddy issues is being in a remake of a movie your dad did where you play one of the love interests of the character he played, i just
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| Snippets from Marie Claire UK interview in the June 2019 issue Why do you think you attract such dark, edgy roles? It's funny, anyone who knows me will tell you I'm not dark or edgy. But that's sort of the point? I don't think I could play someone very much like myself. I think the lines would blur too much for me. And I know that's not a very good thing to say in this business, because as an actor you're supposed to be separating things out, but I think it's more because it just wouldn't be as interesting to me. Why would I want to play someone who is just like me when I could play someone like Amma, you know? My agent knows at this point that he doesn't even need to send me scripts for things that aren't a little darker. But I did film Little Women recently, and that was probably the closest I've come to playing someone like me, being able to play Amy. I'm really excited about that project, actually, Greta [Gerwig] made something really, really great. Have you seen Winona Ryder's Little Women (1994)? Actually, no! Which is kind of funny because it's actually my favorite book of all time. I think maybe that's why I never really saw any of the adaptations; I wasn't sure anything could live up to what I had built up in my own head the more I reread the novel. Kiki [Kirsten Dunst, costar on The Beguiled] was in that one, actually, the Winona Ryder one, and I wanted to watch it for her, but by the time I got around to grabbing a copy of the film, I'd gotten cast in Greta's adaptation and I didn't want to cloud our version of it with another. Which isn't a comment on any of the other adaptations! I'm sure they're all incredible. I just wanted to go in with my own version of Amy, one that was just for me. |
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ANYA TAYLOR-JOY and CAMILLA JAMES in THOROUGHBREDS (2018)
The only thing worse than being incompetent or being unkind or being evil is being indecisive.
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 βββ‘β£βββ π₯π @TheClassicMartie β Jul 2I have never read so much BS as that interview Camilla James did with Teen Vogue, like??? This bitch is 110% manufactured and as inauthentic as they get, I DO NOT get how people can stand her. I would love to know how much that magazine was paid to paint her in such a ~cutesy All American girl~ light bc you can bet that bitch has never volunteered a day in her privileged life
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 sabina not sabrina @tcaosabina β Jul 2that teen vogue cover with camilla james was good and all but like where is our interview where she just goes ALL IN on talking about her crystals and all the witchy spells she's cast and astrology etc etc like THAT is the content i am here for
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 E D E N @eden_bright β Jul 19Thinking about Camilla James not getting an Emmy nom...sick and twisted.
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 megs @megs_turner21 β Jul 22For awhile I was confused as to how someone as bad onscreen as Camilla James could get cast in an Antonio Campos film but then I realized Max Iannello was one of the producers and I was like ah yes she fucked her way there, the final piece of the puzzle
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 this is a camilla james stan account @gretagerwigsflex β Aug 4THE WOMAN IS NOT WRONG feel the rain was the most iconic song of our generation and without this band we wouldn't have jesse mccartney so thank you camilla james for teaching your kids what is RIGHT
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 k-k-kristina @emiliaclarkeism β Aug 20if you think camilla james would ever work with quentin "i'm an abusive director AND a roman polanski sympathizer" tarantino (even a remake of something he's done!!!) you're delusional and don't know her at all, baby girl wouldn't even see once upon a time in hollywood
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 π ella bella π @thecallofella β Aug 21lol we all know that new mutants is getting buried because disney is realizing camilla james is the weakest link WHY WOULD ANYONE CAST THAT BLAND ASS BITCH IN A FILM LIKE THIS
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 camilla james updates @camijamesupdates β Aug 30our queen camilla james got some new hand tattoos! mom looks so cute with them, i wish she would tell us the meaning behind them!!
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 π π π π π π π @yuhyee β Sep 3so you're saying that new mutants cutting out all mentions of x-men means it might wind up in the mcu?? thank GOD because truly alexis key and camilla james are the only ones that can save my interest in it after years of subpar bs (infinity war and endgame were shit pass it on)
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 πβ―βπΆπ πβ΄πβ―π πΏπΆππΎπ πΏβ―π»π»ππΎβ―π @sexyjanis_ β Sep 11If J.Lo gets nominated for Hustlers and Janis Jeffries doesn't get nominated for Lucy in the Sky (IT WAS GOOD FUCK DA CRITICS) and Camilla James doesn't get nominated for Midsommar I'm gonna fight a lot of people
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margo.fulton damn their teams are workin real hard to try and push a wholesome image to make us forget about that dirty asf sex tape aren't they
nicolemay love love loooove a dark kitchen!!! π€π€
boze.heks I literally come here to see good architecture and insightful celebrity home tours from A-listers, not sure how either of them qualify π€π€
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elizanoelle1 Does anyone know where I can get these copper pans??? This is a need not a want!!
wolfhowls Literally don't buy that this is actually their house, I always figured Camilla James would live in some sort of witches' hut with all sorts of crystals and cauldrons and bottled rabbits feet πͺππ